I'm in therapy! Somethings have been happening in my life recently that I've been finding difficult to deal with, and there are some changes I need to make in my life, so I've started to attend a therapist. I had my second session this evening. She is a lovely lady, a bit like Barbara Woodhouse (remember SIT!) she wears a lot of beige and brown, I'm taking advice from a woman with no style.
I was a therapy virgin, the thought of it really scared me so last week when I got there I had no idea what to expect. I talk, she listens, she gives no advice and I just talk until I find the solution for myself. Now I think therapy would work for someone who isn't great at talking about things, or facing up to things, but for me it seems kind pointless!
I have verbal diarrhea I just talk and talk, and talk! I also make jokes, trying to make her laugh! Then I think, oh God I'm trying to make her laugh, she's gonna think I'm mad! So I talk and talk and she listens and listens, repeating things I say sometimes that she wants me to notice, the revelations.... "So you say that made you feel rejected?", Oh my God what a revelation, when my mum left me to work I felt like rejected! No!
I have another four sessions, a friend told me it only works if you want it to work, if you believe! I don't know if I believe in it, Clap your hands children if you believe in fairies! So fingers crossed, I'll keep you updated, wish me luck!