I'm a 45 year old English Lady, living in the lovely Sussex countryside. I married young, divorced young, no children. Several long term relationships, but none that have lasted, so currently single and enjoying it.So why am I blogging? I found myself to be an Orphan at the age of 43, having lost my Mum in 2003 and my Dad in July 2007, both to different types of Cancer. I don't like it one bit, doesn't feel right.Don't run away, this isn't going to be a depressing blog. But my ramblings about my life and things that happen to me, and thoughts and memories. Something positive.So what do I look like? I'm five foot one and a bit (a very important bit!), auburn shoulder length wavy hair, blue eyes (hence blog name), freckles and of a curvy stature.I have a brother who is divorced who has three gorgeous children. One of 21, one of 16 and one of 13, who get spoilt rotten by me.After my mum died quite suddenly of ovarian cancer I became main carer for my lovely dad. He had Non Hodgekinsons Lymphoma for over ten years and had gone in and out of remission. My Mum was his main carer, so I just stepped into her shoes really. At first it was just sorting the running of the house and the finances, but as time moved on my dads health declined and more care was needed by myself and my brother. We became very close, I'm blessed with that. Dad went into hospital early July last year, his kidneys had finally failed. He was in HDU and then a week later he died of a heart attack. It was a release for him as he was beginning to loose the quality of his life and was going to be starting another course of chemotherapy and dialysis.I don't like being an orphan at my age, just doesn't seem right that I'm now the older generation. I don't feel old enough! I'm having grief counselling and my doctor has given me some mild anti depressants , just to get myself back on my feet again. Ive had four major losses in my life over the past four years, and finally losing dad and caring for him has taken its toll on me.So that's me in a nutshell really. Hope that you will come back and visit as I have lots to chat about and to tell you about my life.