Who am I and how did I get here?

Hmmm Someone left the keys in the door, guess I will peek inside. Oh no ! Someone has shut and locked me in! So here I am. That may not be exactly how it happened ...but close enough.

This is a challenge for me. I am not a writer and not an open person by nature, honest but not open. I will apologize in advance for typos, misspellings, bad punctuation or lack there of, and anything else that would send those who write or read into convulsions.

I guess I should give you a glimpse into who I am, please do not fall asleep and if you must please no drooling or snoring!

I am a 47 year old, married 28 years, mom of 4 and grandmother of 1. I live in the Central Valley of California USA. I have spent my life being a wife, mother, caregiver to elders and am just now trying to figure out who I am in addition to those other things. Yes I know so cliche for a woman my age, believe me I am not so thrilled about it either.

So here I am to inflict my silly ramblings on you. I have no idea what I am doing, but feel it is good for me to be in uncharted waters. I hope everyone involved has as much fun with it as I intend to have.

Who am I?

I'm a 45 year old English Lady, living in the lovely Sussex countryside. I married young, divorced young, no children. Several long term relationships, but none that have lasted, so currently single and enjoying it.So why am I blogging? I found myself to be an Orphan at the age of 43, having lost my Mum in 2003 and my Dad in July 2007, both to different types of Cancer. I don't like it one bit, doesn't feel right.Don't run away, this isn't going to be a depressing blog. But my ramblings about my life and things that happen to me, and thoughts and memories. Something positive.So what do I look like? I'm five foot one and a bit (a very important bit!), auburn shoulder length wavy hair, blue eyes (hence blog name), freckles and of a curvy stature.I have a brother who is divorced who has three gorgeous children. One of 21, one of 16 and one of 13, who get spoilt rotten by me.After my mum died quite suddenly of ovarian cancer I became main carer for my lovely dad. He had Non Hodgekinsons Lymphoma for over ten years and had gone in and out of remission. My Mum was his main carer, so I just stepped into her shoes really. At first it was just sorting the running of the house and the finances, but as time moved on my dads health declined and more care was needed by myself and my brother. We became very close, I'm blessed with that. Dad went into hospital early July last year, his kidneys had finally failed. He was in HDU and then a week later he died of a heart attack. It was a release for him as he was beginning to loose the quality of his life and was going to be starting another course of chemotherapy and dialysis.I don't like being an orphan at my age, just doesn't seem right that I'm now the older generation. I don't feel old enough! I'm having grief counselling and my doctor has given me some mild anti depressants , just to get myself back on my feet again. Ive had four major losses in my life over the past four years, and finally losing dad and caring for him has taken its toll on me.So that's me in a nutshell really. Hope that you will come back and visit as I have lots to chat about and to tell you about my life.

Yippee

Back at last , well done son

My name is ails and I have missed this .

I loved coming on here and reading about other people's lives and sometime's getting thing's off my chest. I am nearly sixty so life is'nt all that exciting as all children have moved on and doing their own thing . however I hope i can give some input into the blog .

Anyway it's late and time for bed so will come back soon to see how you are all getting on

New Blogg

Well I'm here, Ive wanted to do this for a while however like the ironing its something I just haven't got round too ... until now

Well I shall start with a little bit of background information about me, Im 39 I will be 40 in December and fully intend on having a really, really massive party for the event.

I am married to Jon, we have been married for 10 years in December and we have two children Lois who has just turned eight and Oscar who is four and a half.

We live in the Burbs of Essex after moving here from East London in 2002 though none of us are Londoners... actually Lois is ,she was  born at The royal London hsptl in Whitechapel .

Other than Lois, I am a Warwickshire girl and hubby is a Geordie, and Oscar well he's an Essex boy through and through.

That's about it for now,

I cant promise to be witty,clever or always happy but I can promise to be honest and give you a little snapshot of life for a normal(ish) family living in Essex, I hope you enjoy!

And who said it was all over!!! you should have known better

Hello there, Shanachie here.

Well that previous post is no longer valid, let me explain what happened. I had alienated myself from SL and the others after my last post explaining why I wanted to leave, well it seems my decision was a good one. Not long after the guys were all together out on the Lima Bean Fields picking away and I had made friends with other bean pickers on the other side of the plantation. Word got out that they had all gone mad on the moonshine and a van came and picked them up and dropped them into the pound.

Well to be fair I was pretty fucked off, but my new companions kept me sane. I knew somewhere out there, Someone Living had left the key to the blog around and I endeavoured to find it. 

4 months went by and the keys were found, and the blog was reborn. 

Enough of that shite, but it is good to be back! and yes we have a load of new bean pickers on board, not only that but we are going worldwide, with posts from Ireland, England, the USA, and mainland Europe. The other thing we hope to do is continue as Someone Living and Midget Wrangler had intended. We will carry on where they left off with some bloggers who have been at it for years to others that have never ever read a blog let alone posted on one! Very few of us have even met each other which will even make it more interesting!

Hopefully we can keep going as Someone Living and Midget Wrangler would have intended.

So forninepounds open for business, I hope you enjoy your stay. And many thanks to SL for giving the blog a second chance you will be missed buddy! but rest assured you will never be allowed back! mwhahaha!!! only kiddin!